How about a cantonese song?

This is a song which I find it meaningful and had inspired me to move on having met some challenges. Sorry it's in mandarin characters but sang in Cantonese =)

一步一生
作曲：伍樂城@RNLS
填詞：林夕
編曲：伍樂城
監製：伍樂城

童年是誰伴我走　挽我的手
望我踏上天梯　不可退後
曾經期望著我　前程和戀愛　甚麼都擁有

＊沿途就算跌　要跌得好看 　
才能不自責　報答別人厚望 　
然而誰明白我　沒你們所想的堅壯 　
我很想找個人　對我說別怯慌 　
回顧中彷彿一步一生 　每一級一世都難忘　如何吸引 　
曾碰上每個過路人　跟我漸行漸遠 　
懸崖上我始終都企穩 　
誰伴我去走一步一生 　每一位一個不留神　不再熱吻 　
還有沒有人　令我驚險又興奮 　
願我能　提示我這一雙腳　別震

＊ Repeat＊

前面是誰伴我走　挽我的手 但笑著吃苦的氣力　我有

A Precious Teardrop

To some of you, I came across to be someone very serious. The things that I usually mentioned are tough and harsh which has sometimes been in conflict with my soft heart. ( Yes in Mandarin Zui(3) Ying(4) Xin(1) Ruan(3).

Recent occasion took control of my emotions again before I am ready to write another post. Dear friends, do not worry. I am fine =)

Recent msn chats:

MCP XXX: Hey how was your AGM?
Cheryl: Normal I supposed….
MCP XXX: How’s your feeling now that your term is over?
Cheryl: ……..(lost with words to describe)

So what is my feelings actually, I really don’t know, but I just realized the reaction I had at the end of AGM.

Straight after AGM, I left as fast as I can with my beloved Mentor and great friend Cecilia, who made it all the way to my AGM telling me that She as my Si Fu (mentor) will definitely attend her disciple’s graduation. How touched I can be with her words. Thanks Cecilia!

So why did I leave as fast as I can after AGM?

Reasons:
1) Because Cecilia is celebrating my graduation with me with a warm lovely steamboat buffet. To end my year long starvation haha.

2) Because I want to hide my emotions or because I want to avoid getting emotional in front of the crowd at AGM, having so many people who are so lovely putting a sincere full-stop of my term.

I definitely do not look as nice when my tear drops.

I have managed it quite well for the whole day until I read someone’s sugar block( a bigger version of a sugar cube)

“ you were always a figure if challenge for me, a challenge that I have to surpass……I realize that you have been understanding of what I am going through and although the words may be not what my ears like to hear, it was necessary.”

These words melted my heart. I supposed it is due to the fact that in my inner heart, I have been yearning for such understanding throughout the year “I really hope that you guys understand that I don’t mean to be harsh but I have to and I really do understand what you guys are going through” I have never gotten the understanding explicitly despite that my teammates still respect me a lot and we are still rocking together. What really made me hanging on till the end was the believe that I have in them that they will eventually understand my intentions, thus no matter what happened, I have bite my teeth tied and waited for the day to come even when I am not sure when will it be.

In contradiction to the MCP toast MCPs sang at IPM which I supposed it was because of the belief that no many will understand MCP during their term except for MCPs.

“ Here’s to you, here’s to me.
Best of friends we’ll always be,
But if by chance we disagree,
Then F**K you – we are the MCP”

*this is a copyright version was contributed by Rickesh *

Despite so many up and downs, I still think it is worthwhile even if I have drop another tear that night.

Conclusion: It is in fact nothing new, June and Ying made me cried before during my LCP election when they were speaking nice things about me for my proposer and seconder speech…..that made me stuck with words and just ended up not following my speech, haha I wonder how I got elected as LCP that time.

So if you want to have fun in making me cry, being tough difficult to me will not be as effective as making me felt appreciated and touch my heart.

Transformed Me

Life in MC team 2004-2005 is truly extraordinary. Looking at the daily things that you are doing that is seems very ordinary others’ point of view. It is the spirit of working as a team that made it so Extraordinary.

You get to experience many “Virgin” times like:

1. Flying the first kite in my life
2. Seeing my VP Finance eating his first crab in his life
3. Working with an Estonian
4. Managing and Mini AP with members of around 10 nationalities
5. Having people helping me developing my sense if humour
6. Riding on a roller coaster in learning how to be a good president
7. Rushing a whole lot of deadlines
8. Sleeping only 6 hours a day on the average
9. Having to spend the most amount of money taking taxis to and from meetings late at night

10.Training up my stamina in thinking 4am in the morning to Solve some HR issue when my MC HR fell asleep.

11.Having to changed from a person who don’t dance at all to someone being asked to dance GREENLIGHT in international conference!

12. Coping with unexpected expectations that the team will expect from me ( Oh how I wished they know they are expecting something from me and informed me about it ) Well, I usually have to find out myself.

13. Managing all the emotional moments of my team when I am yearning for someone to take care of my emotions as well. ( Well, my nick was the iron lady, but is it really true?? I think only my team knows )

14. Making new friends from around 80 countries and territories, yes my msn list is full, I have to delete some old contacts to make space for my new international friends

15. Experiencing the feeling like and idiot for a few days after the term without having to practice strategic thinking. Feeling kind of brainless, this felt good afterall when my brain needs such a break after a whole year of intensive exercise!

16. Applying 1001 ways to service and support my teammates so that they can function in the top form, sitting at a corner telling myself not to expect that they will appreciate it but still it’s worthwhile.

17. And the list goes on, you can add on from your experience in the comment below to break the World Guinness records!


Well, if you have asked me what are the things that I would have sacrificed in my term. I guessed there are many, such as sacrificing my time to watch the favourite drama series on TV, catching up with my friends outside AIESEC, doing some other thing that is less meaningful and many more. In each of our heart, there is certainly a weighing machine is different from one another. Yes it is true that I did sacrifice something and gain something. The things that I have gained are most of the time more intangible. Only at the end of the term I will realized that: “Hey I am a more disciplined person now, hey I can actually do this, hey I can actually do that…” I have fallen; I have right back up from where I fell.

Someone told me that all such things, I can get from other organizations with all the opportunities so why did I choose to do it through AIESEC?

Well, there can be a few reasons that I can think of right now;

1. The truly international experience with global youths and global professionals
2. The experience to work from the macro management point of view being in MC as compared to working from the grassroot point of view when you are going to work in a company as a employee.

3. The regional working experience, working in regional teams, facilitating regional strategies that accelerated my career path after graduation. How many years do you think a normal graduate will need to take in order to be ready to be in the position to deal with more regional stuffs?

4. It is the PEOPLE in this wonderful organization.

The things that I truly get at the end of my term as President of AIESEC in Singapore are:

1. One is never the best leader at the beginning of their term, but one will be a better leader at the end of the term.

2. What leadership is NOT about?
· Leadership is not about title, stature, how much money you make, or how many people work for you, or what your ranking is on any particular list. Anyone can lead from anywhere at any time.

• Leadership is a choice, and it is about making positive impact
  
• Leadership is it is all about unlocking the potential in others and getting others to see possibilities they did not think of before, and helping people achieve more than they thought was possible.

• Leadership is about the fundamentals of value and character and judgment and balance.

• Leadership is a journey, not a destination, and those who stop learning and stop adapting start losing. And the power is from the connections between people and things and ideas, and frequently a leader's most important job is to connect things.
  

• Leadership is about acting on time before the obvious

Seems to be a long post, time to sleep. Thank you everyone for putting colours in my paper of life, be it dull or bright, you made it colourful =)