A Precious Teardrop
To some of you, I came across to be someone very serious. The things that I usually mentioned are tough and harsh which has sometimes been in conflict with my soft heart. ( Yes in Mandarin Zui(3) Ying(4) Xin(1) Ruan(3).
Recent occasion took control of my emotions again before I am ready to write another post. Dear friends, do not worry. I am fine =)
Recent msn chats:
MCP XXX: Hey how was your AGM?
Cheryl: Normal I supposed….
MCP XXX: How’s your feeling now that your term is over?
Cheryl: ……..(lost with words to describe)
So what is my feelings actually, I really don’t know, but I just realized the reaction I had at the end of AGM.
Straight after AGM, I left as fast as I can with my beloved Mentor and great friend Cecilia, who made it all the way to my AGM telling me that She as my Si Fu (mentor) will definitely attend her disciple’s graduation. How touched I can be with her words. Thanks Cecilia!
So why did I leave as fast as I can after AGM?
Reasons:
1) Because Cecilia is celebrating my graduation with me with a warm lovely steamboat buffet. To end my year long starvation haha.
2) Because I want to hide my emotions or because I want to avoid getting emotional in front of the crowd at AGM, having so many people who are so lovely putting a sincere full-stop of my term.
I definitely do not look as nice when my tear drops.
I have managed it quite well for the whole day until I read someone’s sugar block( a bigger version of a sugar cube)
“ you were always a figure if challenge for me, a challenge that I have to surpass……I realize that you have been understanding of what I am going through and although the words may be not what my ears like to hear, it was necessary.”
These words melted my heart. I supposed it is due to the fact that in my inner heart, I have been yearning for such understanding throughout the year “I really hope that you guys understand that I don’t mean to be harsh but I have to and I really do understand what you guys are going through” I have never gotten the understanding explicitly despite that my teammates still respect me a lot and we are still rocking together. What really made me hanging on till the end was the believe that I have in them that they will eventually understand my intentions, thus no matter what happened, I have bite my teeth tied and waited for the day to come even when I am not sure when will it be.
In contradiction to the MCP toast MCPs sang at IPM which I supposed it was because of the belief that no many will understand MCP during their term except for MCPs.
“ Here’s to you, here’s to me.
Best of friends we’ll always be,
But if by chance we disagree,
Then F**K you – we are the MCP”
*this is a copyright version was contributed by Rickesh *
Despite so many up and downs, I still think it is worthwhile even if I have drop another tear that night.
Conclusion: It is in fact nothing new, June and Ying made me cried before during my LCP election when they were speaking nice things about me for my proposer and seconder speech…..that made me stuck with words and just ended up not following my speech, haha I wonder how I got elected as LCP that time.
So if you want to have fun in making me cry, being tough difficult to me will not be as effective as making me felt appreciated and touch my heart.
Recent occasion took control of my emotions again before I am ready to write another post. Dear friends, do not worry. I am fine =)
Recent msn chats:
MCP XXX: Hey how was your AGM?
Cheryl: Normal I supposed….
MCP XXX: How’s your feeling now that your term is over?
Cheryl: ……..(lost with words to describe)
So what is my feelings actually, I really don’t know, but I just realized the reaction I had at the end of AGM.
Straight after AGM, I left as fast as I can with my beloved Mentor and great friend Cecilia, who made it all the way to my AGM telling me that She as my Si Fu (mentor) will definitely attend her disciple’s graduation. How touched I can be with her words. Thanks Cecilia!
So why did I leave as fast as I can after AGM?
Reasons:
1) Because Cecilia is celebrating my graduation with me with a warm lovely steamboat buffet. To end my year long starvation haha.
2) Because I want to hide my emotions or because I want to avoid getting emotional in front of the crowd at AGM, having so many people who are so lovely putting a sincere full-stop of my term.
I definitely do not look as nice when my tear drops.
I have managed it quite well for the whole day until I read someone’s sugar block( a bigger version of a sugar cube)
“ you were always a figure if challenge for me, a challenge that I have to surpass……I realize that you have been understanding of what I am going through and although the words may be not what my ears like to hear, it was necessary.”
These words melted my heart. I supposed it is due to the fact that in my inner heart, I have been yearning for such understanding throughout the year “I really hope that you guys understand that I don’t mean to be harsh but I have to and I really do understand what you guys are going through” I have never gotten the understanding explicitly despite that my teammates still respect me a lot and we are still rocking together. What really made me hanging on till the end was the believe that I have in them that they will eventually understand my intentions, thus no matter what happened, I have bite my teeth tied and waited for the day to come even when I am not sure when will it be.
In contradiction to the MCP toast MCPs sang at IPM which I supposed it was because of the belief that no many will understand MCP during their term except for MCPs.
“ Here’s to you, here’s to me.
Best of friends we’ll always be,
But if by chance we disagree,
Then F**K you – we are the MCP”
*this is a copyright version was contributed by Rickesh *
Despite so many up and downs, I still think it is worthwhile even if I have drop another tear that night.
Conclusion: It is in fact nothing new, June and Ying made me cried before during my LCP election when they were speaking nice things about me for my proposer and seconder speech…..that made me stuck with words and just ended up not following my speech, haha I wonder how I got elected as LCP that time.
So if you want to have fun in making me cry, being tough difficult to me will not be as effective as making me felt appreciated and touch my heart.
4 Comments:
u are such a softie at heart
tsk tsk
just like me...hehehe
welcome to the world of alumuni la ( even though me and shah still have serious problems coming to terms with it ) and run for alumni president then, we support u !
A different world of different challenges await u dear miss wong!
oh gimme a break yingster, I have aged alot ever since I became MCP, need to stay young you know =P
cheryl my dear, i hope you haven't lost my sugar block, either..
wish you all the best in post-mcp reintegration and everything you do next!!!!!!
U young and energtic.. the older one need a break.. and guess is time oso for the recent batches to move in... so the old one can move on too.. haha... get attached and be married, for those yet so.
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